Zille Defeu’s Fetish Fantasies

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Over a year ago now, I shot a spanking video for the wonderful folks over at I Feel Myself.com. Some kind people have told me how much they were looking forward to seeing it, but none more than I, because I knew it was going to be something I was proud of, a piece of my career that I could enjoy not only in the final result, but in the happy memories of creating it.

Well, here it is!

A lovely blurb was written to go with it:

A little diversion from the theme never hurt anyone – in fact, there might be a whole lot of folks out there who it will benefit greatly. Many of you have been asking for more Zille for years now, and finally we can deliver. Well, someone can deliver, at least – maybe we had a lot less to do with what you see here than we’d like to credit ourselves with. Mr Spanky might really be the one to thank.

(Note to blog readers: Mr. Spanky is my Master. Call him that at your own peril!)

But even better are the reviews in the forum. I just grabbed the first page of them — wow are these validating to me as an artist, a spanko, and just as a woman who appreciates people appreciating her! Read the rest of this entry »

It’s funny where you find images of yourself — and your bottom!

When I visited with the lovely folks at IShotMyself.com, they handed me a little booklet, promoting their company and websites. It’s really well done (I would have given anything to get that design job!) and, lo and behold, it also happens to have two pages devoted to lil’ old me (and my bottom)!

Click on the image below to see it in it’s full glory (opens in new window)…

The image on the right is from the first shoot I did for IShotMyself.com. The one of the left is from a shoot where I shot myself before and after shaving my pubic hair (I’d let it grow in special!) and includes a video of me shaving the bits in question (and then rubbing them with lotion, like you do!)

One of the best parts of my trip to Australia (and one of the things I was really looking forward to the most) was finally meeting the fabulous folks over at I Shot Myself , and getting to work with them.

The ISM headquarters are well appointed and full of sexy people – I only got to spend a little time with them, but it makes me wish I lived there and could work for ISM!

After we were shown around the offices and studios, it was time for the show! The one my Master and I were putting on, that is! Mr. Feck himself had kindly taken time to give us the grand tour, and shoot our video!

We’d had some discussion of it, and it was decided that he would give me a spanking, and then “force” me to have some orgasms. Oh, poor me! Well, that original idea was expanded upon, and suddenly there I was, in a little plaid skirt and flowered knickers, and a cute white shirt (no bra), crawling over to him, to be put over his knee!

Mr. Feck had suggested that my Master spank me “for 10 or 20 minutes.” Well, my Master not being a man who does things by halves, I got a 20 minute spanking, with very few pauses!

Again, oh, poor me! This was so wonderful for me, because I just adore spanking. It’s really pretty impossible for me to see it as a punishment, because it’s so much fun, and the pain is more in the “fun” part of the spectrum than other things (the cane, tawse, and most especially the paddle) which are more at the “oh fuck that hurts!” side.

And my Master seldom gives very long spankings. At least, I don’t perceive them as long! (I’ve a couple times said sadly, “Oh! Is it over…?” when he stopped spanking me, only to find I’d had over 200 whacks. I think my sense of time gets messed with!) He loves spanking me, but he also wants to do other stuff, so sessions tend to involve spanking, caning, a lick of the tawse, a bit of slippering – all interspersed with blowjobs and sex and etc.

So I’d never had 20 solid minutes of spanking before. It was glorious! Although I do have to say that the last five minutes or so were pretty intense. I felt like my bottom was truly being “blistered,” the heat had built up so, and each spank made the fires rage higher.

It got me so aroused that when he fingered my pussy, it made very wet sounds. And there was a camera trained right on it, so I’m sure the liquid evidence of my arousal was glistening in the lights!

Speaking of light, we had to do creative lighting so my Master’s face wasn’t showing. So Mr. Feck came up with this beautiful lighting set-up, where my Master is this ominous shadow man, his arm raising out of the darkness to spank me. How hot is that?!

After the spanking (in which he made me come from spanking numerous times) there was the finger-fucking part of the video. He made me come so much that my throat was all scratchy and sore afterwards!

After all this “hard work,” Mr. Feck and two of the lovelies from the office (who were not just lovely, but also deeply intelligent and so much fun to talk to) took us out for dinner. I think the people in the restaurant were very glad to see us leave, some hours later, because we had discussions about every aspect of sex and porn, in vivid detail, and we were not discreetly lowering our voices at all.

We walked back to the studio through the suddenly cold evening, and then shot what will be the opening of the video. I won’t give it away, but it’s hilarious and was really fun to shoot, and I think I should win an Oscar for it!

The video is going to go up on I Feel Myself — although I don’t know when, yet. I’ll let you lot know when I find out. In the meantime, I already have a video up there, which involves hot pink very tight spandex leggings, and a vibrator….

Hello all! I have so much to write about! But first I want to say, with great excitment that my newest set has gone up at IShotMyself.com. Actually, it’s not just my set, because my Master is in it (doing his first porn evar!) and we captured him making me feel “like a virgin, touched for the very first time!”

This is what the kind folks over at ISM said of the shoot:

There are a fair few ISM fans who have been waiting for months now to see Zille and her beau together at last. Well, parts of her beau, at least. The lucky mystery man is holding the camera for most of this set, and we like his taste in angles. Thanks to these two honeymooners!

There’s no spanky-bot action in these images, but you can see some fading cane marks on my bottom!

Also … this is really exciting (and a wee bit scary) for me because this is the very first time I’ve done boy-girl porn. Until this point, I had only ever done girl-girl. It was a limit for me, one I was very comfortable with. It was a limit that made sense at the time, because I was in a poly relationship with a woman who didn’t really like me being with men. Since we were poly, we only ever did safer-sex stuff unless we were working with someone who was already our lover, and the demand for boy-girl porn with condoms was pretty rare five years ago (it’s gotten a bit better, since.) So it made sense. And it was a limit I never crossed.

But now, that limit doesn’t make sense, because my Master is the only person I’m having sex with (and this may or may not change, depending on what he wants) and he is a guy (obviously.) I’m not about to make fake porn, since my whole career was all about making 100% real, beautiful porn. So now I have new limits that make this limit silly … but it was a limit for so long, that stepping over it feels weird and a bit daunting.

But I’ve never let that kind of thing stop me before (well, at least since college…) so now it’s done, and here are the results….
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Last night I had today’s post all worked out in my head, but now I’ve forgotten what I was going to write about!

Well, I do have the news that my Master and I are going to Australia on Friday, so if I miss a few days of posting at the beginning of the week, it’s because email access might be spotty while we are travelling.

In good news, I’ll be doing a shoot with I Shot Myself while we are there, and possibly another shoot as well (yes, as a model!) so there will be even more naughty pictures of me on the internet! I will of course provide samples and links as they become available! I should see if there are any Australian spanking websites I could model for! (Anyone have any suggestions?) We’re also going to two Australian fetish events, which I’m really looking forward too! My “kissing cousin” Ariel will be there, and maybe she will finally get to tie me up, which we’ve both been looking forward to for forever!

I’m excited to finally meet the ISM folks — I’ve been working with them for some years now, and it will be like meeting old friends for the first time. And to get to see their studios and shoot a video with them will be really exciting!

They like me so much they have three images of me on their tour!
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