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Mr Defeu is off on a trip again, and so when I found this old post it really resonated with me…. Originally posted on 6th Oct 2008.

Mr Defeu got home last Thursday night, and I promptly got sick. And then he had family-crisis stuff to deal with. So the best I could do as his girl was to have yummy food prepared for him, and surprise him with his desk all cleaned and neat and polished. (Most of the house was supposed to also be this way, but see above about the getting sick part, which threw the wrench in those plans!) I was scared that the weekend would go by with just dealing with family stuff. And also, when I get sick, he gets all in Daddy mode and wants to snuggle and pamper me.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I like being snuggled and pampered as much as the next girl, but when it means his Mean Scary Dominant Self gets turned off – then I’m a sad girl, because I live for our scenes. When he growls roughly at me to do something, my knees turn to jelly and other parts of my anatomy do fascinating things. When he gets all sweet and loving, it’s great … but well, it’s like flavours. I like to eat sweet stuff (oh yes I do indeed!) but I also crave rich, hearty, savoury flavours as well. Think of discipline and the various pains of spanking, caning, etc., as Boeuf Bourguignon, and your favourite sort of pizza, and spaghetti the way your mom made it, and creamy Potatoes Au Gratin, and sushi, and chicken satay and Tom Ka Gai, and a Monte Christo or Croque Monsieur or your favourite sandwich or burger, and, and, and … all your favourite savoury foods!

Happily, some of that yummy stuff was coming my way. He said he needed a nap, early Sunday evening, and I despaired. But then he saw I was upset and pointed out that after the nap, he would be refreshed…. He slept for about 45 minutes, and then I went in and joined him in the bed, and snuggled with him as he napped, and just enjoyed lying in bed with him, feeling his warmth and hearing his breathing, as I looked out of the window at the night-time city lights.

Eventually he stirred, and reached for my hand, and pulled it down to his cock, which was obviously wide awake and ready for action.

I laughed with delight, and said, “You should take lots of naps, Sir!”

Then I didn’t say anything for a while, because I was sucking his cock.

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While my questionnaire about What YOU want in spanking porn goes on apace (and please take a moment to comment, if you have not. The more information I get, the more chance of me helping spanking producers making the porn you really want to see!), I’ll take the opportunity to post a shoot from the folks over at SexandSubmission.com which make me wonder if they have been paying attention to my own requests that they get more of the right sort of schoolgirl/spanking shoots going on.

The summary of the shoot, entitled “The Good Old Methods”:

Emma Haize is a disrespectful student and her professor Sarah Vandella does not know how to handle her correctly. She calls in the dean, Steve Holmes, who resorts to some old but effective correctional tactics. He then punishes and fucks both girls in bondage as a way to improve relations.

I think it’s just great that the “professor” is taken to task along with her student.
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There was a bit of drama in my Fetlife group the other day (no huge shock!), and while it’s all sorted now it did leave me with an urge to get porn makers, porn models, and porn consumers all communicating, as much as I can.

The deal here is that you, the porn consumer, does not need to grumble and gripe in forums (or even just to yourself!) that what you want to see is not being made. The internet has broken down the gap between the porn makers, models, and masturbators (sorry, there was nothing for it but to go with the alliteration, there!) and while us models have our blogs, and some of the great porn creators, like Shadowlane and Northern Spanking Institute (just to name two), have their own blogs, the great mass of customers are reasonably anonymous and unspoken for.

So this is a post where I am asking those of you who consume porn to delurk, and say what turns you on. If I get enough information, in a few months I’ll organize it all and turn it into a report, of sorts, which I’ll make available to the other spanking models, and producers. But, regardless, I will leave it open for comments, and you should feel free to leave your comments here even if you’re reading this five years on. (Indeed, if people are still commenting I’ll really have a good report to do, then!)

Most of you will have no trouble coming up with requests. But for those who need a bit of help, here’s some questions of my own:

• Who do you like to see get spanked?
• Who do you like to see do the spanking?
• What intensity level(s) do you look for?
• What scenarios do you never get tired of, or just want to see more of?
• Does the setting/background matter to you? Do you care about authenticity?
• What is the single most important thing to you to have in spanking porn?

Noto Bene: Comment only in a positive manner. Do not use insulting terms. You are most certainly allowed your point of view, but no one is allowed to spew negativity on my blog. Comments I don’t like will be edited or removed.

To start things out, I’ll post first a comment on another post which I just received:

There are no good movies YET of an older women taking down a female’s girdle and I want to know why — it’s one of the biggest male FANTASIES … PLEASE do something about it … thank you!

Above image of Niki Flynn’s lovely bottom courtesy ofNSI.

After the fact, now here’s some fiction:

(Screen capture from “School Dreams,” Starring Zille Defeu & Stephen Lewis, at Northern Spanking Institute.)

She lay sprawled across the hard surface of his desk, not-quite crying now, but still sniffling and gulping and really still not far from tears. Her hateful, ugly, “regulation knickers” bunched at the top of her thighs, having been casually — and callously — dragged there one handed, as if it was the most natural thing in the world for a man to tug down a grown girl’s underwear. And now those vile knickers just uselessly framed that part of her body that they were supposed to cover, conceal, protect — a part which was now reddened, blotched and marked.

It was always the combination that did it to her. The cane and the tawse. It never mattered much which order he used them on her, but the getting two together in one punishment always knocked the stuffing out of her. One or the other alone she could handle; they always hurt, and maybe he’d bring out the tears, but afterwards she still felt like (a rather subdued version of) herself.

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The very nice Bondage Blog just linked to my 1970′s Spanking Party post. So I wandered over to the site to look ’round, and immediately found an anime pic which totally does it for me:

What I like in the above image:

• The knickers roughly shoved aside for penetration. Sex is better NOT naked!
• The anime jizz. I’ve been totally corrupted by a combination of Victorian and anime porn (who knew those had anything in common?!), and so my fantasies have copious ejaculate flying everywhere.
• The fact that time was taken to draw the guy as out of shape. I love the “humiliation” factor there — hot young girl being used by older guy. I’d actually much rather see that than a hot porn stud any day of the week. It’s just more where I’m at.
• The position, too. She is so helpless on his lap like that. It makes her look really small, and him really in control.

Kink.com, despite their usual focus on nudity (yawn), do have a very good shot of this fetish:

(Also, can I just say I love the use of chiaroscuro in this image. It actually adds to how hot it is for me!)

I did not have the panties-pushed-aside fetish until I got together with Mr Defeu. But combining his fetishes for schoolgirl uniforms with authentic knickers and his spandex catsuit fetish with my endless desire for penetration (heehee, puts new meaning to: “You got your chocolate in my peanut butter!” “No, you got your peanut butter in my chocolate!”) soon lead to us both realizing that we’d much rather have sex where he was either pushing my regulation knickers to the side (or unzipping my catsuit crotch-zipper just enough) for roughly “taking” me.

Hmm, that last sentence calls for more thought on the matter. The fact is that I really would prefer to be playing at “consensual non-consent” (the “safe” and more comfortable term for “rape play”) than happily boinking away. There is time in my world for some consensual sex, but if I was to get a “bumper sticker” tattoo in the area over my ass, it would read, “I’d rather be pretending I don’t want to!” (“My other car is being raped” doesn’t have quite the right ring to it! Anyone have any other bumper sticker ideas?)

And here is where I think the Victorian and anime porn influences really do intersect and make me the girl I am today. Both the Victorians and the Japanese are a culture where “Good girls don’t,” and where it’s all about male desire, and women submitting. Whether it’s a lord of the manor with an unwilling maid-servant, or a tentacle-monster with a uniformed-schoolgirl, chances are great she’ll be moaning, “No, no, please don’t put it in there!”

And, given my druthers, I’ll be in a Victorian period gown (with corset and other period unmentionables, thank you!) or schoolgirl uniform, moaning just the very same thing, as my clothing is shoved roughly out of the way, so proper phallic item can be pushed even more roughly inside me.

Yes, now that is what I like!