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The gorgeous Minx Grrl, who is a local model (seen in this post with images from her shoots for Kink.com), spanko, and all-around-pervert, does a meltingly hot blog. Recently, she posted up Spanking Minx: A Minx translation guide, in which she lets tops know what the things she says and does during a spanking really mean.

I think this is a brilliant idea (and very well written!) and I plan to do my own “translation guide” in the coming days. I encourage all the other spanking bloggers to join in!

Before the spanking

The bratting: If I am being a brat, chances are I am pushing to see how much I can get away with before you take action. Finding out how long you will take my brattiness until I get “the look” or a verbal warning with *that* tone…or no warning before I’m over a lap or knee. It is also my way of giving you a reason to spank me … in case just being me isn’t reason enough.

What you do: Threaten me with a spanking or punishment of some sorts or give me the look.
What you see: Blushing and possibly a look of horror on my face. Usually followed with silence.
What I’m feeling: Really? You promise? Prove it. Make me believe you. Make me know I have to obey you. That I am not the one in charge here.

What you do: Use that tone that means only one thing.
What I do: Try to hide and disappear into myself especially if we are in public.
What I’m thinking: Shiiit, that tone … it makes my knees weak. I want to push one more time to see if you will take me in hand.

What you do: Roll up your sleeves before the spanking.
What you see: Me looking down
What’s going on in my head: Fuck, fuck, fuck. It’s getting closer.

What you hear: Me stammering excuses, pleading, begging and/or backpedaling.
What I’m thinking: For the fucking love of all things important, please don’t let me off with a warning. Spank me, PLEASE!!!

What you see: Blushing, shifting from foot to foot, fidgeting.
What I’m thinking: It’s so close. Eep!

What you hear: Sir
What I’m thinking: You have me very subdued

What you do: Lecture me
What you see: Head down and pouting Minx
What I’m thinking: This is so fucking horribly embarrassing…I hope I won’t soak through my knickers.

What you hear: Whimper and/or whining
What I’m thinking: You are good at this. I don’t whimper for many. For fucks sakes, back your shit up.

What you do: Pull me over your lap
What I’m thinking: Mmm strong man. Oh crap, here it comes. Will he start light? Do I get a warm up? Gah, I sure hope so. Wonder how long it’ll take till my sweet spots kick in.

After the spanking begins

What you see: Lots of squirming and maybe even my trying to worm away and off your lap.
What I’m thinking: Grab me tighter!

What you hear: Ow, ow, please stop!
What I’m thinking: Ow, mmm, ow, please don’t stop!!!

What you do: Hook a finger in the waistband of my knickers.
What I say: Noooooooooooooo! Please don’t!
What I mean: Fuck, I hope I didn’t soak through them. I hope there is no visible wetness. That’s even more embarrassing *cunt twitch*

What you do: Spank harder
What I do: Whimper more, try to block the swats with my hand
What I am thinking: Pin my wrist to the small of my back or make me move it away.

What you do: Spank harder and faster
What I do: Quiet down with occasional yelps
What I am thinking: I am close to tears. I dont want to look like a pussy, but I need the catharsis. I want the release.

What you do: Stop spanking and rub my back and bum
What I do: Slow my sobbing
What I am thinking: Thank you, thank you, thank you.

What you do: Hug me close
What I do: Hug back harder
What I am thinking: I needed that so fucking bad. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

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After yesterday’s post of Irelynn and me, I wanted to share two more images from that fun and sexy video.

I love these shots from Northern Spanking Institute because they remind me of the best sort of shots from Janus magazine.

The mindset of the coach character I am playing in this video would have been really humiliated to be punished in front of her student. To have her gym shorts pulled down and be spanked and caned just like the guilty schoolgirl would be the worst sort of punishment! I love the psychological aspect of the video. It could have just been a silly video, but we turned it into something more, something really hot!

Well, I asked my Twitter friends what to blog about today, and the only one to suggest anything was Lucy from Northern Spanking Institute. However, I’m not going to do either of her suggestions (fashion, or David Bowie!) today (although I will certainly cover those topics another day), because she reminded me that a new set of Irylnn Logeen and myself (and of course, the evil Stephen Lewis!) have gone up on NSI!

This fits perfectly in the Halloween spirit of things, because in this film I am playing a track coach, which is a true costume for me (I’m no good at running, and did my best to skip PE classes when I was in school!) So enjoy me in my gym shorts and whistle (and enjoy my acting — I had a great time getting in character for this!) because you won’t see that in real life! (Also, Irelynn is deeply enjoyable to look at in regulation gym knickers. Yum!)

I so much like the idea of Firsts Fridays that I’m going to keep it up for a while. Today’s topic: the first porn I shot.

The above image was shot when I was a wee beginner model. I was living in Western Mass, where I was going to school, and I had come to the conclusion that a life in porn was the life for me.

Now, trying to find safe modeling jobs in the Back of Beyond, Massachusetts was quite a … well, it was an education. The first rule I made, which I’ve always stuck to for my whole career, was that if I was not allowed to bring an escort, I wouldn’t go to the shoot. I lost a lot of jobs over that. I also was never raped, nor taken advantage of in a physical way. (I did make some dumb choices, did things I would do differently now, but that is part of the whole learning curve thing.)

I’ve written about my first shoot, and I’m going to go looking for that file. But, in the meantime, I thought you all would like to see me in my college schoolgirl days!

At the moment, my favourite Kink.com site, SexAndSubmission.com, has a 50% Off Special: $14.95 per month (You save $15). This sale lasts until Oct 31, so I recommend hurrying over there and joining up while this generous discount lasts!

Why do I like this site so much? Here are three good reasons: