Zille Defeu’s Fetish Fantasies

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(The results of Friday night at Shadowlane. See below for how those marks got there!)

For me, Shadowlane is about friends. It is also about spanking, but I’m afraid my account of the best spanking party in the U.S. is simply not going to be as exciting as some of the bottoms who spend the party going from lap to lap.

Not that there is anything wrong with that, of course – they are just in a different place from me. Some of them may not have spanking in their lives all the rest of the time, and this is their big weekend to play and get in experiences to keep them going for another dreary year. Or some are eager newbies, wanting to taste every experience, and taste it now. Or some other equally valid explanation. Whatever, if you want a scene report that is just the non-stop spankathon that can be one’s Shadowlane experience, go sort through other blog posts here.

A friend asked me what I was into (I was burbling excitedly to him about rope bondage at the time) and I think it bears a little explanation, since I’m always considering it and having new realisations, myself.
As many of you know, I started in the dungeon. I got into BDSM in college, having been handed Pat Califia’s Macho Sluts by a girl I really wanted to sleep with. (I did eventually sleep with her. And do kinky things with her. And make porn with her. We had a very useful friendship!) I joined the “Younger Generation” BDSM group, and spent my time learning the best sort of candles to use for wax play, how to properly coil rope for rope bondage, how to season a single-tail so it cracks best, and how to wrap someone in saran wrap and then make convenient slits and slide ice cubes in and make them scream and squirm. (Okay, that last bit came naturally!)

The dungeon is really a useful place. To this day, I can show you how best to set me on fire (very temporarily!) for the prettiness and adrenalin rush of it. But what it did not do was help me find my way to my “core kink”, as it were. I took classes on everything – it was sort of assumed you wanted to learn everything, from where to hit on someone’s bum, to how to get a fist up there as well! And I, caught up in the thrill of kinky excitement, just went along for the marvellous ride.

I think people were supposed to find their “thing” along the way. But, for many years, I just bounced around, trying everything at least once, “Jacqueline of all trades, mistress of none.”

A funny thing that came out of that is that, for the longest time, I just decided I was “not a masochist“. Pain turned out to hurt, you see, and without the drive of a core kink, it just really didn’t seem worth it. I had nothing to help me through the pain of a beating, so I just avoided them. The pains of rope bondage had a reward (the attention you get as you are tied and untied, the admiration you get for holding a hard bondage position, and usually pictures of yourself looking hot and sexy in the ropes.

I had decided that I only liked “thuddy” pain. (I think this was a way to get only nice safe floggers used on me, or some such.) Amusingly, a professional dominatrix friend then told me that if I didn’t like stingy pain, I wouldn’t ever enjoy a caning. And I have to seriously thank her for that! Because it meant that Mr Defeu was the first person to cane me. And being able to have that “cherry” for him to pop meant so terribly much to both of us!

Now that Mr Defeu has come up, it’s really time to leave the dungeon for the headmaster’s office. Because when he handed me a stack of Januses (Janii?) – in between the first time he spanked me and our first date! – that’s when my core kink came suddenly, completely into focus.
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This light, yet sturdy black nylon toybag is a simple, practical bag for carting around various toys and gear.

At 32″ long, and 7″ diameter, this cylindrical shaped bag will fit most longer toys with ease. It has a 2½” wide adjustable nylon carrying strap, a heavy duty black zipper that zips up the middle, and a second, smaller compartment with a zipper on one end. Machine washable.

And to put in your new bag:

This thin, 28″ long cane is expertly shaped and sanded rattan, which is similar to bamboo but stronger. At approximately 3/8″ average diameter, the cane is straight and flexible with a crook handle.

Please note that handcrafted canes may vary in length from 1″ to 3″ as a result of each item being individually made.

Show them Who’s the Daddy with this JT’s Stockroom original design.

A clever twist on the classic punishment belt, the Daddy’s Belt has a traditional belt buckle and loop, and 14 steel rivets holding a looped strap together as a handle. The strap makes a fear-inducing snap, when grabbed at both ends and quickly straightened. The strap is 1½” wide, and 17″ long in a loop.

This implement is a must for English schoolroom discipline scenes. This very fine, hand-crafted slapper has a rich, rusted-brown and black finish with an attractive tooled pattern on the handle.

The Tawse has an 18″ total length, 6″ of which is the handle, and is 2″ wide. The slapper end is split in two, giving the implement its distinctive sting.

This all-black Slapper crop is 20″ long and features a sturdy rubber handle for a good grip with no slip.

The business end incorporates two 1½” wide strips of thick black leather which produce a nice slapping sound when they contact.

Want to add some kink to your Quaker lifestyle? Looking to spruce up those old-world domestic scenes? Do it the new old-fashioned way with a black leather rug beater.

The solid 13″ handle is covered in soft, braided leather, topped with a beautiful turk’s head knob and a wrist strap. The business end is a 6″ tightly-braided loop that provides an intense, stinging welt with minimal effort.

This “old school” piece of equipment is a very serious pain-infliction tool and is not recommended for light play.

Turn their bottom a new shade of red with these gorgeous 18 Inch Hardwood Rulers.

Beautifully crafted from either solid Bloodwood or Cocobolo, these rulers will make them cringe in delighted anticipation.
Bloodwood is a hardwood imported from South America, is generally from a light pink to a deep blood-red, and is incredibly dense. This wood is often used by woodworkers for its natural ability to take a polish, and its unmistakable red coloring.

Cocobolo is a very beautiful hardwood, known to change color after being cut. The heartwood is typically orange or reddish-brown in color, often with a figuring of darker irregular traces weaving through the wood.

Individual batches of either wood type may vary in color hue or grain pattern.

Bloodwood Rulers are 3/8 inch thick. Cocobolo Rulers are 1/4 inch thick. Both are 1.5 inches wide, 18 inches long and taper at the handle for a firmer grip. The narrow width of the rulers makes it easy to focus on a particular area, allowing you to administer a fairly intense spanking. They are coated with a clear gloss finish, giving the wood a beautiful sheen. Attached is a leather cord for hanging. Happy Spanking!

This 3/8″ thick wooden paddle is 3″ wide on the business end with a 1¼” wide handle. All edges are rounded, and the wood has a smooth black finish.

Similar in shape to a fraternity paddle, these implements are patterned after the old Spencer paddle, a classic among spanking fans. Made of very strong 7-ply Baltic Birch wood, these plywood paddles are guaranteed not to break under normal use. The diamond pattern of holes acts to reduce air resistance.

Well, it’s pretty clear how happy I am, as I snuggle into the delicious bosom of Pandora Blake after our shoot. She doesn’t seem too unhappy to have me there, either!

Of course, we were also both quite high on endorphins. For some reason….

I have such happy memories of that day. I can’t wait for the other video we shot to go live!

Read more about the shoot here

So, a new year, a new spanking video!

This one stars Pandora Blake and Thomas Cameron and me. And it was shot by Mr Defeu!

Zille Defeu sent us this fantasy before our first shoot with her. She wanted to play a stablehand unfairly punished over her jodhpurs, and came up with this scenario. The master of the house disciplines her with a riding crop for not performing her duties in a timely manner – and Zille is powerless to resist his amorous advances.

When Thomas’ wife walks in and sees him fondling one of the servants, Pandora assumes that Zille has seduced him. She demands that the slutty stablegirl be soundly whipped. Never mind that poor Zille has been thrashed once already! Pandora watches with relish as Zille is given a hard caning over her jodhpurs.

But the truth will out. When Zille finally speaks up for herself, she reveals that the reason she was lax with her duties was that she was running errands for Pandora – who it turns out is having an affair. Thomas decides that a comparable thrashing is only fair, and blackmails his wife into compliance. As Pandora bends over for the cane, Zille looks on with no small amount of satisfaction.

I am very VERY pleased with this video, and I recommend it to anyone who is either:

• A fan of Zille Defeu or Pandora Blake (Or Thomas Cameron!)
• Turned on by good acting in porn films
• Turned on by CP (riding crop and cane) over jodhpurs
• Turned on by manipulation roleplays
• Turned on by darker fantasies

(Actually, to be honest, I didn’t realize this was a “darker fantasy,” but it seems to be one of the “nastier” ones on the Dreams Of Spanking site! I’m afraid that if people use fantasies from my dirty mind, that’s just how it’s going to end up! Also, it has been called “1970′s porn-like.” Hrm. I’m afraid my fantasies also all generally run in that direction, too! Although the range is from “Victorian porn-like” to “Blushes Magazine porn-like”! It’s just how I roll!)

Originally posted on 16th Feb 2009.

Sorry that I was MIA for most of last week, but I went on a trip with Mr Defeu, and while I was gone I was mostly focused on work for my own new job. If I even look at my blog, I’ll tend to “just write a short entry,” which of course then tends to be one of my really long ones (which probably only three of you lot actually read all the way to the end!).

Our trip was down to Southern California – visiting several towns. The first one was for Mr Defeu’s work, a conference that had him away all day, leaving me in the hotel room to work and wander down to the hotel gym. Our favourite Thai restaurant is in that town, and we had a wonderful dinner there. Also, the night we went down to enjoy the hotel hot-tub, we had the surreal experience of ending up in a hot tub with a rugby team (women rugby players!) and a couple marines and listening to them chat as they passed around a bottle of Malibu rum. They were kind enough to include us as the rum went ‘round, and indeed, were very nice people and we had a lovely (if perhaps surreal) time talking to them.

Of course, I had totally forgotten the marks on my bottom from last Sunday’s strapping and caning extravaganza. Ooops! I tried to keep my bottom turned away from everyone (not an easy feat when you are in a round hot-tub!) but perhaps I needn’t have worried, because if anyone is used to seeing bruises, it’s rugby players and guys in the military, right?!

We then drove up to visit our friend Mr. Stagg (who really needs to get off his arse and start commenting on this blog. I mean YOU, Mr. Stagg!). He’s one of Mr Defeu’s oldest and bestest friends (if men can be said to have bestest friends…) and we all went to an old hang out of theirs and drank mai tais and generally had a wonderful evening. I got quite tipsy, but I remember we talked a great deal about fetish and spanking and fun stuff like that!

The next day we were off to LA for the LA Kink Fetish Weekend. We only went to the Saturday event, “Rubberotica,” because we wanted to get home on Sunday and enjoy a leisurely Monday (it’s Presidents’ Day here in the U.S.) before the real world starts back up on Tuesday.

Just the one event worked out fine for us! We had such a great time; I can only imagine the next night would have been anticlimactic! Read the rest of this entry »