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Funny to find this after yesterday’s post! Originally posted on 10th Apr 2006.

Well, you’ve all been good patient people, who have posted to let me know you like being voyeurs into my sex life [grins at you all] so here is an image from Mr Defeu’s birthday!

That’s a green school-girl gym-skirt you see on me. Oh, what a hot scene it was! My grades had been slipping, you see, and my teacher had me come over to his house for some discipline…. By this point my hands have been hit with a tawse, and the front of my thighs tawsed as well. I have been spanked, caned with a light cane in several positions, caned with a heavier cane also in couple postions, and then soundly fucked (in a variety of positions! And oh — sex with Mr Defeu is simply wonderful. But sex after being caned is beyond description.)

Then, a heavy nasty mean tawse was taken to my bottom (that would be the over-all redness you see) and then I got a final six from the cane which nearly had me climbing off the bed in pain!

It was amazing. After it was all done, and we were snuggling, I asked Mr Defeu, “Who’s birthday is it, again?!” Remember that picture of me looking all glow-y? I took that a few hours later.

I have a big long post to write about masochism another time, but suffice it to say, for now, that I am very happy with being a masochist and I am glad I am in the hands of someone who knows what to do with me!

Continued from Part I. I should warn you that this turned into a long and not particularly coherent ramble, with thoughts coming out faster then I could write them down, and so it doesn’t go in any well-mapped direction, nor come to a tidy conclusion….

Happy reminisces aside (and he’s given me plenty of lovely sensation-memories to contemplate in bed while he’s off on a business trip this week) the main reason I shared this scene was because it has really got me thinking about my long strange trip around the land of which Sacher-Masoch is king. (Or at least the guy who gave it its name!)

I’ve written before about how I was surprised as hell when I first got into BDSM and discovered that even though I’d been fantasizing about pain all my life, it actually hurt, and how that made me back off and explore submission and other kinky stuff, certain I was a failed masochist who could only dream but not live up to my own fantasies.

And, I’ve written how Mr Defeu and the Senior cane changed all that one amazing evening.

But that “voyage of discovery” wasn’t over, and I’m still very much learning about the intersection of pain and me.

Coming from the BDSM world, the spanko world confused me. In BDSM, masochists are out, proud, and boast of their masochistic depths – indeed, the most sought after thing is to be a “bottomless pit” which can take all the pain a Top dishes out – and preferably orgasm from it. (Of course, not many people are actually like this, and this ideal probably alienates many people as much as it did me!)

On the other hand, so many spankos claim to not enjoy pain at all. They suffer CP to get other rewards, they claim. This point of view helped me, when first arriving from the cult of the masochist (“Ah! It’s okay that pain hurts!”) However, it soon got in my way, because there are indeed times when a stroke hits just right, and I process it as pleasure. Or I get a spanking that amps things up slowly, just right yet again, and I can actually come from it, just like a real big masochist, mommy!

That’s what made me want to change the common-use (within the BDSM/spanko communities) definition of masochist, from “someone who enjoys pain” to “someone who gets something from pain” (which is what the dictionary definition is, anyway). Because I think most people who want to be spanked (or otherwise caned, whipped, strapped, or paddled) fall somewhere in-between the 0 of “I get nothing from being spanked” to the 10 of “I am a raging masochist who will come from being skinned alive”.

But this post is ranging too far in scope – I actually meant to just be talking about my own self-discoveries. Just as sexuality is fluid, so is masochism, it seems. (Although of course, for me, I don’t think there is any real division between my sexuality and my masochism.) Some days I just want the CP equivalent of love pats. Other days I crave my fundament being turned entirely black and blue….

But even more, as I learn more about myself, my own ability to take more and different kinds of pain expands.
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This is the “fun bit” of a two-part post. First I’ll recount a lovely scene Mr Defeu and I just did, and then tomorrow I’ll talk about some of the thoughts it has brought up for me. Dessert before dinner, for those of you who are just here for the spanking and kinky sex. But for those of you who want the “deep thoughts” part, the best is yet to come!

I was feeling a bit low on Saturday afternoon (despite some lovely first-thing-upon-waking-sex) and of course Mr Defeu knows the best way to perk me up: “I think there shall be a scene, this weekend,” he announced. “Oh, really?” I asked, suddenly buoyed up nicely. He nodded, and said nothing further, keeping his devious plans to himself.

Sunday morning rolled around, and as we cuddled in spoon-position after waking up, something else woke up, and poked me in lower right bum-cheek. “Aaaah,” I said, (always profound, me!) “Would you like me to go change into something more suitable?”

I was instructed to change into a vest (that’s a wife-beater, to American readers) and gym-cut knickers (which I took to mean short cotton-spandex shorts, not regulation knickers – and, as I wasn’t punished for wearing the wrong thing, must have made the right call!) and so, clad in a white vest, navy gym shorts, and two pony-tails (not just to be cute, but to keep my hair out of the way, as I had a feeling fellatio would factor into things somewhere, and also, getting a mouthful of hair during a beating, always after having been told not to move your arms, is both frustrating and embarrassing), I knocked on the bedroom door, and was curtly instructed to enter.

I was fighting a grin quite strongly at this point. I so very much wanted to be in role, but I was really just too happy that filthy perverted stuff was about to happen. I managed to have my face mostly under control by the time I got inside the door.

“Well, my girl,” he said in full disappointed “this will hurt me more than it hurts you” Authority Figure Mode, “What did I tell you about being too rowdy last night?”

Uh, I don’t know! – was my first thought, and not one I said outloud – I didn’t remember being particularly boisterous or unruly the night before. So I tried for an all-purpose defence: “Um, youthful high spirits?”

That justification was of course deemed quite beneath regard, and I was treated to a lecture on how I had quite ruined his evening, but he didn’t want to be imposed upon to have to punish me when he was trying to get some RnR, and so he would attend to me now.

I was lapping this right up of course, although I gave a token stab at self-defence and tying to talk my way out of what was coming to me. (You can’t very well say, “Yay! Yay! Lecture me more!”)

This worked so well that I ended up being pulled over his lap as he sat on the side of the bed, and him laying right into me with heavy, hard spanks.
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I was wandering around the interwebs, and found this real corporal punishment permission form. Since I’m not sure the school would like its name up on an adult blog, I’ve changed the name and some of the particulars, out of respect.

I post this form because I think some of you might get some ideas for erotica or a real life scene from it. If you do use it in a scene, please post here and let me know! (And if you don’t have a blog to link to, and want to share your scene, let me know and I can post it as a blog entry, crediting you!)

CORPORAL PUNISHMENT PERMISSION FORM

Payne-Marks Unified School District No. 7a policy, allows the use of corporal punishment. Regulation 7a reads as follows:

Corporal Punishment

• In determining whether to use corporal punishment, the following considerations should be taken into account: the seriousness of the offense, the attitude and past behavior of the student, the age and strength of the student, and the availability of equally effective nonphysical means of discipline.
• Corporal punishment may not be administered for academic deficiency or conduct not related to the
  school.
• Corporal punishment must be approved by the school administrator. Corporal punishment may be administered by the school administrator or by educationally certified employees designated by the school administrator. One adult employee of the school shall be present to witness the spanking.
• There must be at least 30 minutes lapse time between the referral and the decision to and
  administration of corporal punishment.
• Parental/Guardian permission slips approving corporal punishment must be on file prior to
  administering corporal punishment. A parent/guardian of the student shall be notified prior to
  administering corporal punishment and will be invited to witness the administration of the punishment.
• Corporal punishment will be administered by spanking the buttocks, no more than three (3) times, of a student with a flat-surfaced paddle that will cause no more than temporary pain and not inflict permanent damage to the body. No other form of corporal punishment is authorized.

I have read regulation 7a and understand that I have the right to choose whether or not corporal
punishment may be used in disciplining my child(ren).

[ ] I hereby authorize the use of corporal punishment under the conditions outlined in regulation
7a for the following children:
_______________________________________________
_______________________________________________
_______________________________________________

[ ] I do not wish for corporal punishment to be administer to the following children:
_______________________________________________
_______________________________________________
_______________________________________________

Signature of Parent/Guardian
_______________________________________________

Date
_______________________________________________

Daytime Phone
_______________________________________________

This authorization is valid as long as said child(ren) are attending Payne-Marks School District. It may be revoked at any time by submitting a new form to the appropriate school official(s).

Paul from Northern Spanking Institute just let me know that there was a set he knew I’d particularly enjoy freshly posted.

And not only do I love it, I know Mr Defeu will as well, as it involves the distractingly beautiful Amelia Jane Rutherford in spandex, a sight which could turn anyone into a spandex fetishist! (Although, since Mr Defeu is already one, the effects will probably more physical than psychological. Ahem.)

Also, in adorable futuristic schoolgirl uniforms are two of my personal favourite models, delectable Amy Hunter (who just makes my painful crush on her all the worse by her being into dinosaurs) and ravishing Leia-Ann Woods (10 out of 10 fruit bats want to ravish her, I have on very good authority!) and also Paul himself, in a sexy silver shirt. (For those of you who like to see attractive male tops!)

Here they all are:

Schoolgirls Amy & Leia-Ann are on the first passenger trip to the moon, when their visit to the flight deck causes rather a lot of havoc! In space, no one can hear you scream…

For those of you who have answer my survey saying you want to see fresh ideas brought to life by attractive models — well, here you go! If you like girls being a bit bratty to “earn” their spanking, this should really do it for you! And, this has both excellent acting, and also very good “reacting” to the spanking and caning (there is protest and noise during the indignity of the hand-spanking, but they take their stripes well during the caning).

I’m really busy with several jobs right now, and I did NOT have time to go watch spanking videos and then do a blog post reviewing them. But wow, did that brighten my day, and so I forgive Paul for distracting me. [coughs] However, I must make one complaint — I didn’t get a chance to be involved in this, and it must have been simply amazing to shoot! I hope there are plans for “Schoolgirls In Space Two — Electric Boogaloo,” and I hope they include me!