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Last night Mr Defeu and I watched Time Shift: Series 10: Crime and Punishment – The Story of Corporal Punishment.

I have to say, it was really, really surreal to see CP images just playing on the television, not in a porn DVD, but as part of a show made for general viewing.

Here is the description (which is clearly made for people who are coming to the programme opposing CP…)

Timeshift lifts the veil on the taboo that is corporal punishment. What it reveals is a fascinating history spanning religion, the justice system, sex and education. Today it is a subject that is almost impossible to discuss in public, but it’s not that long since corporal punishment was a routine part of life. Surprising and enlightening, the programme invites us to leave our preconceptions at the door so that we may better understand how corporal punishment came to be so important for so long.

I’m still trying to fully sum up to myself what I thought of the show. It was one of those eye-opening reminders that the rest of the world does not live in my happy CP bubble, and that corporal punishment apologists are not seen with much sympathy out there in the cold, cruel, spanking-free world.

And of course, there is whole matter of how people who were against CP pointed out that it could be eroticised, and it was used in porn – which was seen as suitable condemnation, no further discussion needed…..

Since I was watching the programme with Mr Defeu, that means I was watching it with someone who had actually experienced CP at school, which meant I got to ask him questions about his own experiences, to supplement the programme … which improved it greatly, and made it a good deal more relevant. I’m hoping that he will have the time to post some of his own thoughts here.

Obviously, this was a discussion of real-life CP, not This Thing We Do. And of course, to get in the discussion of whether it’s okay to have CP in the real world, not just in consensual bedroom games, is well beyond what I intend to write about here (because I’ve had enough drama on my blog recently, thank you, and I find it really upsetting to dread checking my own blog’s comments, because yet another upsetting can of worms has been opened).

So I can’t really, I guess, blame the show for avoiding the intersection of CP in the real world, and the world of consensual adult CP. I suppose it was quite brave of them to make the show in the first place, although of course if you want to get good ratings, you can’t do enough programmes like this. Because, no matter what people have to say about CP, so many are fascinated by it.

And that actually says a lot about it all, to me! People find a reason to watch shows like this, no matter what they otherwise think about CP. And a desire to watch “real” CP clips from the past is certainly no “better” (for whatever value of “better” you want to use there) then watching consenting adults who are getting paid to take their whacks.

Watch Time Shift: Series 10: Crime and Punishment – The Story of Corporal Punishment via BBC iPlayer Online

Ludwig has just paid me an incredible compliment by naming me as one of his Dirty Half-Dozen best spanking blogs — either missing the opportunity to call them “Six of the Best” in the British-style, or leaving me to fall squarely in that trap, I’m not sure which! All I know is, I’m very flattered, and in excellent company!

Dave from The Cherry Red Report just pointed out to me that you can finally get Shadow Lane’s film Starter Wife – Trophy Wife Revenge Match on video on demand, watching affordable clips. If you’ve been waiting for that option, wait no longer! (And let me know what you think of it! I’m very proud of it!)

Following yesterday’s post, here’s a small taste of what happened when Irelynn and I got caught fighting in our bunk beds…

Last week, an exclusive interview (and particularly fun one!) with me was published over at the
Cherry Red Report: Exclusive Interview: Zille Defeu on Double Rainbows, Zombies, Hairbrushes, Garden Gnomes, Lady Ga-Ga, Spanko Fiction, and More.

I was so excited about it (still am!) but then my week went crazy with things I had to get done — as well as our first punishment which renewed our disciplinary relationship (Apunishment accomplished), and then my husband, Mr Defeu, started actually writing for this blog (Punished, and then…), so his posts took precedence because it’s all shiny and new for him (and I’m so glad to have him getting involved in this blog that is a huge part of my life), and then the weekend was full of the local spanking munch and spankings at home.

So it is just now that I am stealing a moment to squeee with delight over the most fun interview I’ve ever done, and how lovely Dave over at Cherry Red Report has been, making me feel so welcome and valued. (And it could not have been a better time, what with me coming in second in the New Spankee of the Year Award. At least Brushstrokes had some nice things to say about me. Oh, also, I accept consolation in the form of chocolates and compliments. My Amazon wishlist is here, for any inspired to send consolation prizes! )

(Image above left, pouting, because I didn’t win, from NSI.)

Anyway, getting back to the happy bit, here are a few of my favourite questions with my responses, but do head over to the Cherry Red Report to read the whole thing!

We here at CRR are thrilled to present an exclusive interview with Zille Defeu, who is an absolutely fab fetish model, spanking star, top-notch photographer, sizzling writer, spanko blogger, super cool person, self-described “raging pervert” and so much more yummy goodness. *swoon* [...]
Thank you Zille for taking the time to chat with The Cherry Red Report. In your opinion, what is the best way to kill a zombie?

When you see the zombie coming at you, you take a special poison that attacks and stores itself in your braaaainzzzzz. Then, after the zombie kills you and eats your braaaainzzzzz, it will be poisoned by the “baited” meat. This, as far as I know from my extensive research, is the most reliable way to make sure the zombie dies. It involves self-sacrifice, sure, but when the zombie apocalypse comes, such things will be asked of us all.

I keep my poison in a special false tooth just for this purpose. It is my “final friend” because I should be well-past consciousness (although still alive enough to keep the zombie’s interest) when the zombie gets to me, so I won’t feel a thing as it rips me apart!

Do you think all hairbrushes should gathered and destroyed?

To be honest, I’ve only had one hairbrush ever used on me! And it was in a custom video (so no one will ever see it, bwahahaha!) for a guy who didn’t want the spanking to be “too hard” – so thus far, to my experience, hair brushes are lovely multipurpose things, with a bad rap!

Although I hate-hate-hate the paddle, so I do wonder if I will also come to hate the hairbrush just as much!

On the other hand, I have come to value things that can be really intense and make me cry, without leaving marks. (Having to not be marked is the one downside to modeling!) So if the hairbrush could yield such results, I might become quite a fan of it.
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The very nice Bondage Blog just linked to my 1970′s Spanking Party post. So I wandered over to the site to look ’round, and immediately found an anime pic which totally does it for me:

What I like in the above image:

• The knickers roughly shoved aside for penetration. Sex is better NOT naked!
• The anime jizz. I’ve been totally corrupted by a combination of Victorian and anime porn (who knew those had anything in common?!), and so my fantasies have copious ejaculate flying everywhere.
• The fact that time was taken to draw the guy as out of shape. I love the “humiliation” factor there — hot young girl being used by older guy. I’d actually much rather see that than a hot porn stud any day of the week. It’s just more where I’m at.
• The position, too. She is so helpless on his lap like that. It makes her look really small, and him really in control.

Kink.com, despite their usual focus on nudity (yawn), do have a very good shot of this fetish:

(Also, can I just say I love the use of chiaroscuro in this image. It actually adds to how hot it is for me!)

I did not have the panties-pushed-aside fetish until I got together with Mr Defeu. But combining his fetishes for schoolgirl uniforms with authentic knickers and his spandex catsuit fetish with my endless desire for penetration (heehee, puts new meaning to: “You got your chocolate in my peanut butter!” “No, you got your peanut butter in my chocolate!”) soon lead to us both realizing that we’d much rather have sex where he was either pushing my regulation knickers to the side (or unzipping my catsuit crotch-zipper just enough) for roughly “taking” me.

Hmm, that last sentence calls for more thought on the matter. The fact is that I really would prefer to be playing at “consensual non-consent” (the “safe” and more comfortable term for “rape play”) than happily boinking away. There is time in my world for some consensual sex, but if I was to get a “bumper sticker” tattoo in the area over my ass, it would read, “I’d rather be pretending I don’t want to!” (“My other car is being raped” doesn’t have quite the right ring to it! Anyone have any other bumper sticker ideas?)

And here is where I think the Victorian and anime porn influences really do intersect and make me the girl I am today. Both the Victorians and the Japanese are a culture where “Good girls don’t,” and where it’s all about male desire, and women submitting. Whether it’s a lord of the manor with an unwilling maid-servant, or a tentacle-monster with a uniformed-schoolgirl, chances are great she’ll be moaning, “No, no, please don’t put it in there!”

And, given my druthers, I’ll be in a Victorian period gown (with corset and other period unmentionables, thank you!) or schoolgirl uniform, moaning just the very same thing, as my clothing is shoved roughly out of the way, so proper phallic item can be pushed even more roughly inside me.

Yes, now that is what I like!

Recently, the ever-so-sexy Rain Degrey loaned me a selection of rubber and fetish specialty magazines from the 1970s. I just love these things — they are so much kinkier to me than modern slick magazines — this was a time when liking this stuff wasn’t cool – it could cause you serious social ostracism, and possibly, if your filthy perversion was discovered, the loss of job and/or marriage. At best, you were unlikely to ever find a partner who would understand your needs.

And that’s what these magazines really tried to help with: hooking up like-minded perverts for nights of rubber-mac-clad-passion, classic-knicker-and-fully-formed-stocking-lust, or spanking delights. (Or all of the above together!)

In the Issue of “Rubber and Latex Special — Part B” (£1 per issue!), to my joy I discovered an article called, “Spanking Parties” (this being topical to some recent posts) and it was with even greater delight that I read the first paragraph:

The swinging spanking party is now part of the American scene and is, in many parts, taking the place of the wife-swapping party, which had quite a vogue over there for many years. The spanking party, particularly on the Western Sea Board, is becoming as important to the social life of the younger set as the bridge party has been over here.

Well, well! It couldn’t get much better than that! As I read further, I decided that actually the author of this article was A.) Not female, B.) had never been to the US, and C.) had possibly never been to a spanking party, either. But it doesn’t matter — there is a certain amusement value that comes from that! I include the rest of the article below, for your vintage reading pleasure. I’ve also scanned a couple of the images that accompanied the article — check out that vintage lingerie!

(I would love to ask the publishers for permission to reprint this — but there is no contact info for any publisher listed. If you know how I can get in contact with the owner of this article, please let me know so I can get in touch with them!)

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The swinging spanking party is now part of the American scene and is, in many parts, taking the place of the wife-swapping party, which had quite a vogue over there for many years. The spanking party, particularly on the Western Sea Board, is becoming as important to the social life of the younger set as the bridge party has been over here.

The main areas where they abound are on the new housing estates which are mushrooming up, and where little organised leisure time activities are available.

The spanking party grows out of a need to relieve the tedium of living. Spanking, as opposed to caning and other forms of corporal punishment of the severer type, has been part of the established form of correction in America for many years.

In the home, the child expects to have his bottom smacked with either the hand or, more usually, the paddle, for any misdemeanours. Later, at school, where societies from a large part of our of school activities, spanking is often included in the initiation ceremony, particularly if the sorority has any athletic annotations.

In the past, these initiation ceremonies were becoming more and more sadistic in their format. Because of many complaints, the ceremonies were banned in several schools where they still continue, the bestiality [sic] has tended to disappear, and has been replaced by the “fun” element.

Many ceremonies end with the formal presentation of one’s own paddle, suitably engraved, to mark the occasion. These presentation paddles are often placed on the wall in one’s house as a trophy. Everyone is proud to have them, it is because of this background that spanking parties have become popular. How do they start? Often it is in a very small way.

The American women are in and out of each others houses exchanging coffee dates as regularly as clockwork. On such an occasion one may comment on the paddle hanging on the wall. Very easily, the conversation turns towards the subject of spanking, and experiences are swopped, and they begin to reminisce about their College days.

The Hostess of the coffee party may, if she still enjoys the feel of the paddle at the hands of her husband, take the paddle down and hand it round. Then, it needs only one of the party to suggest a mutual paddling for the whole thing to begin. There and then, everyone paddles everyone else, and brings a glow all round. With the ice well and truly broken, those keenly interested will soon get together to discuss ways and means of doing it more often.
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