Educational Video Report #1 – “A Private Punishment”
August 10th, 2005 | Author: Zille
My thoughts and emotions on this video are going to be based on the memories that stuck best with me in the several days since I saw it, since this assignment was not given to me until after I had viewed the video.
First, I’ll go over the funny ones, to get them out of the way. I laughed aloud at the beginning when the guy threatened, “I’ll sack the lot of you.” That was great! And Angela’s hair alternately amazed and frightened me (not in the good erotic way we’ll see later in this report.) The most amusing moment was when he offered her the liniment, and I (I had obviously gotten rather engrossed in the film) cried out, “Don’t do it, Angela, it will make it sting worse!” The only thing that could beat this (errr, so to speak) was when they both moved in such a way that the liniment bottle was un-obscured for the first time in the film – and turned out not to be a prescription healing salve – but Johnson’s Baby Oil!
But, funny stuff aside, actually, now that I think back on the film I realize I remember many details (I was about to re-watch it to refresh my memory, but I have realized I do not need to – images, moments from the film are burned into my brain.)
The main things I enjoyed about the film were the punisher and Angela. I was impressed by both of them, for complimentary reasons. He was very deliberate, very calm and purposeful. He would leave his hand on her, to comfort her and let her know he was still in control, and that really made the video much more real and arousing.
Angela – honestly, I was just plain impressed with her. First she was a very realistic nurse. I thought her acting was stilted until a moment where he said, “Are you going to lay over my lap or do I have to force you,” and she just quietly said, “You will not force me,” and she was compliant and obedient to his will from that moment on. I had been hoping, “Make him force you!” because I always like to see the physical tussling, and the moments of fighting the punishment before the pain (or something else) makes the bottom finally give in and submit to her fate. But there was something so graceful about how Angela just submitted; as deliberately as he was taking control she was giving it up.
And of course, I am in totally awe of how Angela took her punishment. Well, for the spankings she couldn’t hide her smile – you could tell she liked them! And with the tawse you could see her sinking into “sub space.” But the most impressive – of course – was the caning. Oh, I hope to take a caning like she does, some day. I don’t know what I’ll do (the first time[s]) , but I imagine it will involve lots of noise and emotion. Angela simply – well, expelled the pain. You saw it go through her whole body and come out her mouth in a breath of release. She made noise, but it wasn’t too much noise – it was still deliberate, she was still in control of herself, even as she submitted to his will.
When, at the end, he gave her two final ones, I loved how she clung to his legs. She pressed her head pretty well up against his crotch, and I think that was her least controlled moment. But because she had been so self-possessed before, that made the moment really speak volumes to me. She was still liking the punishment, she appreciated the pain. And it had drawn her closer to him … she gave him the moment of her relaxing her self-control. I don’t even know if he appreciated it as much as I did!
As I wrote in an email to you – while the caning happened in the video, I was holding your cane against my body. My body recoiled every time he hit her (he even “got me” when he faked it a few times – I jumped more than she did!) My mind was desperately trying to figure out what she was going through, but of course it can’t, since I don’t have that experience. Half the time I think I’m making it out to be even worse than it is – the other half, I think I’m downplaying it – which I think mostly comes from the fact that it gets me so aroused. I keep saying to myself, “This is not like a spanking!” But the fact is that when I see a caning, no matter what my mind does (which is mostly go in two directions at once: fear and longing) my body reacts by all the classic symptoms of arousal: my breasts grow more sensitive and ache to be touched, my clitoris and labia get swollen and hungry, and my pussy gets wet and feels so empty. I have no control over that reaction.
