Zille Defeu’s Fetish Fantasies

Actually, the title of this should be, Shooting with Leia-Ann Woods, and Irelynn Logeen, and Stephen Lewis, and Paul Kennedy. (And of course, my Mr. Defeu, who wasn’t able to be on-camera, but was still very much a part of the shoot.) Because it was like that: it felt less like a spanking shoot, and more like two wonderful days with kinky friends. Whenever NSI wants me back, I’m soooooo ready to shoot with them again. (Erm, well, better let my bottom heal up a bit first. I’m sitting rather gingerly* at the moment!) And if I get a change to work with (or, just hang out with) Irelynn, Leia, or Stephen, I’m so there!

Truth be told, this is actually the second wonderful shoot with lovely people. Last Friday, we hung out with Olivia Manners and Pandora for an (all-too-short) day of spanking, cider, and fine company. It was a private commission spanking film, so you lot won’t get to see it (you’ll just have to ask me to make your own private spanking film!) but the naughty Pandora snapped a picture of one of the punishment scenes, so you’ll at least have a tantalizing hint of it.

I could talk about that lovely afternoon for pages and pages, but Pandora has done a much better job of it than I could ever do….

I felt extremely pleased with myself, if more than a little sleazy and voyeuristic – Malc, at least, was making himself useful manning the camera, while I was just curled in a comfy chair, swigging cider out of the bottle and appreciating the view. But what a view! Zille has the most delightful little hip-wriggle while she’s over the knee – an arch of her back and lift of her slender hips which twists her wonderfully shapely bottom around in ways I could watch all day.

(Can I just say how incredible it is to read things like that post of Pandora’s? To have such an amazing girl write such complimentary things about me … I must have done something very right! Possibly it’s due to surrounding myself with such good, positive people. Also possibly it’s the reward for being honest with oneself about one’s desires – the majority of the spanko scene that I’ve met have all been really lovely people. Hang out with perverts, and life is much better!)

But right now I’m fresh from the NSI shoot, and should capture my thoughts and feelings while they are still, ahem, spankin’ new. (And I’ll get up pictures from the shoot(s) as they make them available to me.)

I was quite nervous when everyone arrived. I know everything thinks I’m so out-going and sociable, but the fact of the matter is that’s just an exterior I wear to cover up my shyness and introversion. (I’ve learned over the years that it’s better for me to force myself to get out and make friends and then do things with them, and to go out to clubs and places full of strangers and make merry. I’m a bouncier, brighter person when I overcome the urge to hide away from the world and just read fantasy novels and watch Star Trek.)

It wasn’t just the nervousness related with social interaction. I was about to do a shoot with Northern Spanking Institute! No matter how excellent their reputation for the consideration of their models, there are few models who don’t have at least a wee bit of trepidation going into a spanking shoot, especially with someone you’ve never shot with before. So I wasn’t nervous (petrified, I honestly assume I’d be!) like I was going to do a shoot with Lupus Spanking Studios, but I was still filled with that anxious energy that makes you feel all jangly and like you’ve had one too many cups of coffee.

The start-off set was Irelynn and me in matching schoolgirl uniforms, girlie-fighting from top and bottom bunk beds. (She started it! She pulled my hair!) It was an excellent choice to get everyone comfortable with each other and ready for two days of shooting together. Both Irelynn and I could easily get into the badly-behaved-schoolgirl mode, and Stephen could easily get into disciplining-said-badly-behaved-schoolgirl mode, and both Paul and Leia-Ann took turns shooting/directing so I got a sense for working with both of them. Seeing such good plannng in action makes a model immediately feel even more comfortable.

Then it was on to the “Estate Agent Shoot” (“Estate Agent” always puts me in mind of the Fry and Laurie skit!). Irelynn and Stephen were the stars of this (always a joy to watch them in action), whilst I was the surprised estate agent who witnesses such filth. (Shocking, I tell you! Just shocking!)

Then a quick still set of Irelynn and I as sisters who were called down in our sleep clothes (obviously being sent to be quite early!) for a punishment of OTK spanking and a caning. In retrospect, a strange thing was that I sort of naturally assumed I was the older sister, but Irelynn was the one holding my hand and comforting me in many of the images. I must be a seriously wussy older sister! Also in retrospect, I don’t think we ever came up with any good reason why this punishment was happening – Stephen was just very disappointed and upset with us, and we were very sorry little girls even before it started!

Then … what we’d been leading up to … a bigger, more intense scene. Paul had chosen one of my blog entries as the plot line – it was somewhat surreal to me, especially right as the scene was about to start, that something I’d once actually dreamed was now about to actuate in a very real way! Those minutes after getting dressed, and then realising I needed to get undressed because of how the storyline played out, and then standing and waiting for the scene to start, in my bra and knickers under the bright lights as everyone hustled around me, those were the most nerve-wracking minutes of the day. Both Paul and Stephen asked me if I was ready to begin. It was exactly the same as when someone disciplining you asks if you are ready for your corporal punishment, or when you are about to take your turn in a competition; you have two answers: “Of course I’m not!” and, “Oh gods, let’s just get this over with!” – and neither of them are the right answers, so you try not to let anyone see you gulp, and assure them, “Oh, yes, absolutely!” even though you’ll never actually really be ready! (This utter lack of readiness then has absolutely nothing at all to do with how you do. It’s just that being ready to start will probably never come from inside you – other people’s expectations are the nudge you need to make the change from, “It’s about to happen…” to “OMFG! It’s happening!”

Okay, this entry has entirely gotten out of hand – I really didn’t mean it to be so long! I’ll continue tomorrow from this point….

(And yes, I know I haven’t done a post since the dinosaurs stomped the earth. But, happily, again Pandora has done a far better job at writing than me, so I direct you to her excellent post: Breaking the Seal. I feel this gets me out of any explanations or apologies, which actually means I’ll get back to our regularly scheduled programme with much greater alacrity! So, hah, you can’t complain!)

*Gingerly is perhaps a wrong word to use in the company of perverts. People might get ideas, when all I mean is that I have a sore bottom!

And now: Shooting with Northern Spanking Institute Part Two!

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