Zille Defeu’s Fetish Fantasies

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Tomorrow Papa Otter and I leave for Shadow Lane. I’m so excited to see so many of my friends again, and to spend a weekend in the company of myriad pervs (it’s been too long!)

As if to spur me on, last night I had the most erotic dream I think I’ve ever had….

I was at this all girl’s school … except that the girl’s uniforms seemed to be bikinis. They were all quite well-built – curves everywhere! – and it was a bit like a music video or Serpieri’s Druuna books! with all these scantily clad hotties walking up and down the halls and stairs of the school.

I myself, in good dream fashion, was naked. But not the least embarrassed – indeed, in the dream, I felt this delicious sensuality, this sexy confidence. I sashayed as if I was moving through honey.

I kept ended up making out with and otherwise pleasing these girls – sometimes just one, sometimes more! – and this was a perfectly wonderful state that could have completed the dream to my perfect satisfaction.

But there was more! I kept getting taken aside by (male) teachers who were finding quite obvious excuses to punish me – I was “distracting” the girls, I was causing a disturbance in class, I was interrupting their studies, you know the drill – and then the teachers used a variety of implements on me. In the dream, I knew that this hurt, but every stroke was like those rare strokes where pain meets pleasure just right, and you can’t tell the difference. I was crying from the pain out in these sensual moans.

The most clear part of the dream I remember now is that I was being punished by a teacher, who’d put a butt-plug in me, and had beaten me with a strap. I then met up with a few delicious girls who were really turned on by my state, and who needed to kiss, caress, and finger-fuck me. (Even in my dreams, I’m always a giver – didn’t want to let these young ladies down, so allowed them to do as they willed with me, whilst keeping my hands and mouth as busy as possible. See, always a giver!)

We got interrupted by the headmaster, who then felt the need to punish me for this further disruption. (And not my fault, I’d add! They seduced me!) He caned me, and then pulled the butt-plug out – I remember moaning, in the dream, and him saying, “Do you feel all empty now?” He then said, “This will fill you up!” and thrust his cock into me.

Sadly, it was after this promising start that I woke up.

Oh, how I wish you could just pause your dreams and then resume them when next going to sleep. I’d go back to this dream in a heartbeat!

So, who knows, maybe this is what Shadow Lane will be like for me…? At any rate, if I wasn’t entirely rarin’ to go before, I surely am now!

I’ll try to blog or at least tweet from SL, but if it’s anything like that dream, then you should really just expect a report after I get back!

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Looking around for “spanked in girdle” on the net doesn’t yield much, I discovered today (when I should have been writing!) except for this amusing video (which lacks something in production value, but at least has nice lingerie!)

I’m finding the Mad Men theme of the upcoming Shadow Lane party very exciting. I have all my outer-wear taken care of. but I am a perfectionist and so I want all my unmentionables to be of the correct vintage as well! (And hey, who knows when your skirts will be flipped up at the party, and everyone in the room will be given a good view of your underclothes?!)

This is what I wish my Papa Otter would buy for me. Please leave a comment and tell him he should get these for me — if he buys any of them, I’ll post pictures here of me wearing them!

Glamour Shape Wear Black Girdle	Harlow Vintage Peach French Knickers	Harlow Vintage Peach Bullet Bra
Glamour Shape Wear Black Corselette	Glamour Shape Wear Black Longline Bra

If you actually want to ensure me wearing these lovely items in a future photoshoot, you could always buy them for me yourself! Here they are in my wish list, which will send them directly to me!

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Are you going to Shadow Lane’s 30th anniversary party? Because I am! It’s just three weeks now, and I am so excited about it! I was a bit nervous for last year’s party, but this year I know so many more people so this time around all I feel is bouncily anticipatory.

Have you done your shopping? I’m pretty much done with mine, but that’s just ’cause I’m so eager. You still have time to get some shopping done online and have it shipped to you in good time. (You could even actually go to the shops, I s’pose, but that’s soooo last century! [grin] )

The fun part is the kind of shopping you get to do for Shadow Lane. For instance, you might be needing to get some unique toys to impress potential spankees (or have potential spankers use on you!)

Victorian Wooden Hairbrush	Jemico Two-Sided Razor Strop Paddle	Bloodline Wooden Paddle – 14″
Slapper Crop	Singapore Stinger Cane

A bit of bondage, perhaps? Possibly some rumpy-pumpy?

Natural Hemp Rope – Assorted Sizes And don’t forget your EMT Safety Shears just in case you need to get your bondage bunny out quick!

Liquid Silicone Lubricant This is a great lube which is long-lasting and safe for sensitive skin.

Need to brush up on your technique? Or, would you like to bring a copy of the book my story is published in for me to sign for you?

The Compleat Spanker

Bottoms Up: Spanking Good Stories

What kind of schoolgirl do you like? Traditional … or slutty?

Traditional Pleated Plaid Skirt (Wide selection of colours & sizes)

Pleated Plaid MICRO MINI skirt (In Choice of Colors)

Don’t forget that this year’s theme is the 1960’s Drama “Mad Men” so you might want to get something that fits the theme (1950-1960s Clothing) for the big party Saturday night!

Finally, looking to get kinkier? Why not try a “Wartenberg wheel,” which fascinates submissives and masochists, but can be adjusted by simple pressure to be either teasing or intense. And it fits in your pocket! Great conversation starter! Or is your playmate making too much noise in your hotel room? My favourite kind of gag (and the most effective I’ve found at actual noise reduction) is the “cock gag,” which might sound a bit off-putting, but actually means that it has a gag which is a good size and shape for the mouth (ahem) and which has a strip of leather in the front which is discrete and good sound-proofing!

Wartenberg Wheel

Latex Gag, Leather Straps

Hope to see you there!

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Ages and ages ago I wrote about a scene my Papa Otter and I did with Henry Higgens.

Well, he was not just kind enough to beat my ass to exotic new shades of black and blue, but he also shot am image of Papa Otter holding me afterwards. (I think he was grabbing my hair because I still had a bit of sass left in me, which I can only explain by assuming I have an inferior self-preservation instinct!)

I had planned to get the images up, but then they got misplaced (which is just as bad or worse when you’re dealing with bytes and pixels to loosing real world items). However, I just found the file they were in, and so here and now I finally get to share this image with you!
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I don’t know when I first started this change, but I was just thinking about it last night (after having a lovely self-inflicted orgasm!) and I am perplexed but delighted by it.

Once I admitted to myself that I was interested in that sort of thing, spankings and loss of power and all that good stuff became part of my regular fantasy fare.

But it was all foreplay. When it was time for me to come, I thought about the sex part.

Somewhere, in the last five years of being with my Master and involved in the CP world, that changed. I am now able to, for example, think about a caning and imagine each stroke, all the sensations and emotions, and even count the strokes and feel my arousal build as the, um, “intensity” would if I was getting that caning in real life.

And I don’t have to conclude with sex anymore. That 18th stroke of the cane could be the one that pushes me over the edge (yes, I count them in sixes), and no need of more.

This may be old hat for a lot of you, but it’s big and new and shiny for me!

Considering it, I imagine my fantasies went through this change around the time that I was able to see a “scene” as complete and completely satisfying without it involving sex. Of course, this “time” was stretched over a period of years, so I can’t see the change-over in my memories – it’s just now this way, as if it always was this way, only I can remember when it didn’t used to be this way. (And have I made that run-on sentence incomprehensible enough…?)

I feel like I have finally earned my “spanko card.” Where does one apply for those, or do They (whoever They are) just know and it shows up in the mail one day?

I would say I’d felt I’d earned my stripes, but then, I have, haven’t I!

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