Zille Defeu’s Fetish Fantasies

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Northern Spanking Institute has finally released the film Bailey and I did with them back at the last Shadow Lane party! I’m so excited! Although, of course, you can’t tell it from this image, where Bailey and I try to look concerned that we are about to be spanked — or killed, buried in the Nevada desert, and no one will ever find our bodies! (You know, one of those “either/or” things!)

Zille & Bailey have individually racked up considerable debt at BLACK JACKS – One of the huge Casino chain owned by mobster Marcus Black. Having no money to pay, and no idea how they got into this mess, Mr Black has the girls taken to an exclusive suite in the hotel by his henchmen and stripped to their underwear. Left wondering what fate might await them.

I love this shot from the video, where you can see Bailey and me earnestly trying to convince Mr. Black that we’ve suffered enough, thank you!

Also, Pandora has a new blog design and URL! It looks really great, and the content is of course up to it’s usual superior standards!

N.B. — Pandora has just done a brilliant review of the film!

Hello there, my dear Readers. I’m utterly worn out from my time dealing with my family, so this isn’t going to be the proper post I’d like to do, but I just wanted to do a small post thanking you all for being wonderful friends and fans this past year.

This wasn’t an easy year for me. At this time last year I was in a really bad place, and in the beginning of the year Mr Defeu and I had some real hard spots. I am really proud of the fact that despite the bad stuff I kept this blog going, and I think the reward is that, with the hard patches worked through, we are in a wonderful place and ready to have a brilliant new year — and I’m so ready to be back to this blog — which is really a very important part of my life — in a much more meaningful way in the coming year.

Kaya sums up how she feels about her Master S … which is just how I feel about Mr Defeu:

He makes me feel loved, and cherished. He makes me feel beautiful and wanted. He makes me feel special and worthy. He’s my companion, my lover. He makes me laugh, sometimes until I cry. I never want for a hug or a kiss. I’m never without someone to talk to, a warm body to snuggle, a welcoming lap to slide onto, loving eyes to look into.

Shadowlane has done a delightful 12 Days of Christmas which ends up at a teaser for the video Mr Defeu and I just did for them. (And don’t I look quite distressed about the over-girdle spanking I’m getting, there!)

Delicious Pandora Blake has been outdoing herself recently with excellent posts — thought-provoking and sexy — and Abel & Haron agree! I’ll just like to her site as a whole, because I can’t choose just one to link to. She also had some very kind words to say about me — thank you, darling girl!

Zille is currently in the running for this year’s New Spankee award at the Spanking Spot, although she’s not a new spankee – she’s been running BDSM and fetish porn sites for years as a producer and photographer, and is only new to the niche world of pure spanking sites. Speaking as a producer/director myself, I can tell you that she’s an absolute star to work with – totally professional, very talented and a complete sweetheart. Please do vote for her – she’s one of the pioneers of queer and female-gaze porn, a total hottie and a gorgeous person to boot, and it would be great to give her credit where it’s due.

Not to jinx myself, the New Spankee of the Year vote is going well for me at the moment, and I am cautiously hopeful! (This is not to say that I couldn’t still loose at the last minute, so please take a moment to vote, if you haven’t yet!) I am not sure exactly how I will thank everyone if I DO win, but I have some thoughts on the matter that I’m tossing around in my head. A free video of me being spanked is one of my ideas….

Speaking of free videos, Ludwig & Kaelah have a free spanking video treat for everyone happening right now at their site. Mr Defeu and I have been barely capable of making tea for ourselves the past few days, so we haven’t seen it yet, but it’s high on the priority list!

Okay, for “not a proper post” this has been going on reasonably long! Hopefully, posts in this coming year will just flow out as easily as this one has done. Thank you for sticking with me during a year when I was barely around, and for then for voting for me at the end of this missing year! You are the best friends and fans a girl could hope for, and I appreciate you all very much!

Oh! Mr Defeu has been making some noises about writing for this blog. The best thing I could think of for the coming year would be for him to join me here. Please take a moment to let him know that he is wanted not just by me, but that you would all like to hear his side of the story, too!

My dear fans and friends,

Would you please take a moment and go vote for me in the Spanking Spot 2010 awards “New Spankee” category? It means a great deal to me that I was nominated, and it would actually mean a ridiculous amount to me if I won.

I’ve had a good year as a spankee. I’ve worked with NSI twice (read about that here and here). I did a wonderful day of shooting with Pandora for her upcoming site (see below) and this coming weekend I’m flying out to shoot videos for Shadowlane! (I also had a spanking party of my own in San Francisco, had a wonderful time at Shadowlane, and was “finished off” at Mrs Darling’s Academy.)

The lovely Pandora and me (and Tom, of course!), a teaser shot of what’s to come:

The adorable Bailey and me:

Stephen Lewis would want you to!

Vote for me or I’ll pout! (Promise!)

And just one more for fun:

(This screen capture’s from NSI’s amazing spanking film Wheatly Manor which stars the gorgeous Amy Hunter and delicious Leia-Anne Woods, who were both in not dissimilar roles at the Finishing School…)

Hello my poor neglected readers!

I am still deeply under the influence of a nasty case of jet-lag (also perhaps recovery from one of the most intense, wonderful weekends of my life), and so I’m just not ready to give you an account of myself at Mrs Darlings Academy during the Winter Term, 2010.

I assure you, however, that there is much of an account to be made. I’m afraid yours truly did manage to get herself in a wee bit of trouble at Finishing School. There were some hot moments in the chilly rooms of the ancient Scottish castle where we gels tried to learn the finer aspects of deportment and ladylike behaviour.

Until I can recover enough to get my mushy brains producing something, I have an impressive and ever-growing list of the recountings of my fellow students, and even of our most impressive Deputy Head, Miss Amelie Hammond-Grant (Or Miss Ham-and-Eggs, to go by the nickname lovingly applied to her by the ever-naughty Miss Tombola van Hoyden!)

I shall list them below, with the names they used at school.

Miss Amelie Hammond-Grant: Finishing School Introduction, Finishing School part II – The Bus Driver’s Tale

Miss Woods: Finishing School Part 1, Finishing School Part 2, Finishing School Part 3. A favorite snippet, involving me:

After the entertainment the drinks flowed and so did the punishments. I think we all received further punishments for one infraction or another. While the atmosphere seemed relaxed I took the opportunity to slip off with Zille. We had spectacular girlie fun and were both pleased as punch to have got away with it, or so we thought. When I returned to the dining room one of the girls pointed out my love-bite. Oh dear. With short hair I would never cover it. I went out for s smoke to think on what to do, when I encountered both Mrs Darling and Miss Hammond-Grant. I must have looked ultra guilty or worried as Mrs Darling, genuinely concerned stopped me to ask if I was alright. I said I was and tried to ease my way past them as quickly as possible. Suspicious both tutors took a closer look and of course noticed the love bite. Oh dear. Groundhog day. I was in trouble. Again. Finally I was released with a promise that I would be dealt with in assembly for such an infraction.

Miss Pandora Blake: Off to Finishing School, A Night At Mrs Darling’s Academy, Playing The Game, We who would virtuous be / leave smut behind us

Miss Caoilfhionn Ni Bradaigh : To Darlings We Are Sent, Finishing School: The Head Girl’s Tale (post by our Head Girl, Miss Catherine Thomas)

Miss Violet Kynaston: Finished off, or To be a lady

Miss Jemima Symington-Gore: Jemima Writes To A Friend, Eliane At Finishing School , It Gets Into Your Head

Miss Tombola Van Hoyden: Finishing School

Even a gal not attending Mrs D’s Academy has learned some lessons from it: Irelynn Logeen: Weekend Lessons.

Before I sign off for the evening, I want to note that some of the young ladies who attended Mrs Darling’s Academy do not have their own blogs. (Indeed, Mrs Darling herself does not have a blog!) I’d like to invite anyone involved with Mrs D’s fine institution to feel free to count my blog as a home for their accounts of and/or ruminations upon the event. Just email me (zilledefeu at gmail dot com, for those who don’t want to use the contact form on the about page) or ping me via Twitter or other social networking site, and I’ll be happy to give your writings the exposure they deserve (and we all want to read!)

(To already quoted people: If I have not spelled your name right, left bits off, or used another name for you, it’s because that seemed the safest bet — or in the case of a spelling error, because my guess was unlucky! Please correct me to what you prefer!)

There’s been memes going around the blogs like the annual winter flu is going around me and all my friends.

None have really excited me that much, but Graham has fixed that! Here is her meme. I’ve caught Graham fever — you can too!

1. Tell us your Kinsey rating! (That is, where you fall, approximately, on the spectrum of sexuality, with zero being “only attracted to members of the opposite sex” and six being “only attracted to members of the same sex.” Follow the link for the full breakdown.)

I’m a “3” but in interesting ways. When it comes to masturbating, most of my fantasies involve a male (or at least masculine) – but in real life, I’m far more comfortable with women. I have some male spanko friends I trust, but they go through a very fine filter. But I’ll make out with or plunk myself over the lap of … well, I shouldn’t say, “most women,” but my social sieve is rather less selective! Or perhaps women are all just “finer”!

2. Spanking / BDSM “type” that suits you best (switch, top, masochist, grand-master-wizard, etc.):

Mostly-bottom-switch. I get the most from receiving the spanking … but sometimes even I must admit that there are times when there is nothing better than warming up someone’s bottom!

3. Favorite blog / site of the moment (kinky/spanking-themed):

I’ll say Pandora, because I’ve been engaging in mutual stalking with her….

4. Favorite non-kinky blog / site of the moment:
http://www.theregister.co.uk/

5. Latest spanking fantasy floating in your head:

My fantasies get more and more extreme … until they reset to a simple one of being put over Daddy’s lap for a spanking. The default reset is non-sexual, but then the sex worms its way in … first Daddy puts a finger in my bottom while lecturing me on my bad behaviour (as Graham says, don’t ask where this stuff comes from!) … and next thing you know, I’ve worked up to being kidnapped by slave traders and “broken in.”

6. Blogger you’d like to spank / be spanked by:

As Graham is responsible for this meme, I think it only fair she pay for it by getting over my lap! But that’s for when we both are actually in spanking-distance of each other!

7. Age when you lost your (consensual, adult) spanking virginity — if this has yet to happen, give us a prediction or goal!

This is hard! I did some “rough sex” and roleplay in senior year of high school, and freshman year of college my open-minded boyfriend spanked me (he wasn’t really into it, but thought leaving red hand-prints was really fun!) and then my first BDSM scene was later, junior year of college. But I can’t say I was spanked by a proper spanko until I met my Master!

8. Favorite literary reference (excluding spanking stories!):

I find Heinlein answers for both spanking and non-spanking!

“I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do.”

For Heinlein on spanking, SpankingBlog has my favourite spanking scene in Heinlein.

9. Strangest limit:

Cold water. I’d rather boiling pitch be poured on me!

10. Some Random Vanilla Trivia, in the grand tradition of memehood… Like, “what are you listening to right now,” or “what’s your favorite fruit,” or anything similarly banal.

“Leeds United” by Amanda Palmer. And any fruit except kiwi fruit, which I think is icky!