Zille Defeu’s Fetish Fantasies

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Two things are making me think about my schoolgirl uniforms, today.

One, American Apparel has just come out with their own line of Pleated Schoolgirl Skirts which is really good news, because it means that it is much easier to pick up very authentic looking (not the slutty, obviously fake kind) skirts which are nonetheless made to fit people who have secondary sex characteristics (relevantly: a hip to waist ratio which is not equal!) They have a range of colours including: Heather Taupe, Light Charcoal, Dark Charcoal, Navy, and Black.

For me, authenticity is just so very vital. I don’t mind wearing a tarty little tartan number for parties, or in a joking way around vanillas or spankos who will find it funny. But for real scenes with Mr Defeu and other people who care about such things, well, authenticity is where my heart lies; it helps me get into that vulnerable headspace which makes a spanking scene so much more intense. For me, a slutty skirt would actually act as a shield, something I can hide behind, not something which helps me open up. (I realise this is ironic when the slutty skirt involves so much less material. It’s just one of those weird things: I feel emotionally nakeder in the longer skirt, with big ol regulation knickers under that!)

On the other hand, I don’t want to be just wearing an ill-fitting costume. I want the uniform to be something I would wear, something in which I can look smart. So sometimes, it is hard for me to balance the desire to get all my schoolgirl clothes from the children’s uniform section. Making real schoolgirl skirts for adults addresses this problem perfectly. (After all, the skirt fit you when you were a child. Why should an ill-fitting one be more “authentic” than one made for your current shape and size?)

Also, Maggie Mayhem has done a very intense post entitled Why I Hated My School Girl Skirt Then And Why I’ll Fuck In It Now. A quote I really like:

Porn isn’t in the wrong for using the school girl uniform, schools are already forcing and establishing the dominance pecking order by establishing a school girl uniform. That’s some non-consensual D/s shit and it’s much more appropriate to do between two consenting adults. Consensual outlets for self-aware control freaks, that is my sexual harm reduction method. Your brain is the best sex toy you will ever own and part of fighting oppression is looking into yourself and how it holds you back and how to participate in it. When you eroticize something, you pull it from that context and begin to engage with it in a way that moves towards more awareness. Just playacting doesn’t create the conscious awareness, thinking about why and the context with which you have those feelings is a separate and long process. At the very least, the images jump to the forefront of your brain in a place where you cannot and will not ignore them completely.

So what’s the word for that sexual identity?

Sunday, 16 January 2011

This has been an amazing week for Mr Defeu and me: Tuesday we re-initiated our discipline-based relationship, and then Friday evening we had over the delicious MinxGrrl for a session of traditional British schoolgirl uniform fitting, and traditional CP, and then kisses, snuggles, and erotic story-reading with added stimulation.

I must say that as a first-time play session with someone, it went rather fantastically well! (And, from her tweets, the Grrl of the Minxness agrees with me!)

I’ll let her sum up the action:

So I was dressed up in proper British school attire, spanked, caned, strapped w/ belt & tawse, slippered, had my hands strapped & caned… We played about 4 hours with a couple breaks. I also had my feet caned, put in the corner and there may even be more that I just can’t remember through the afterglow haze. Ow…mmm. We only stopped to snuggle and for me to make out with his hot wife ftw!

During some of the play, I grabbed Minx’s mobile and started getting shots I thought she’d rather like to have, later. She has since tweeted her favs, and thus I present to you a photo-essay – snapshots of some lovely moments in that evening….

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Sorry all — been horribly busy since my last post. However, good news (at least for me) — Mr Defeu and I are about to get a nice holiday, which just happens to include a hot roleplay weekend at an Elite Finishing School: Darling’s Academy. I shall excitedly blog all about it after it’s over — although perhaps I can sneak in a blog post or tweet during school hours (I’ll have to be careful not to get caught, of course! Use of laptops and mobiles is very restricted of course!)

To make up for my absence, here is a shot by Mr. Defeu of the naughty girls we recently had such a fun day shooting in authentic schoolgirl uniforms!

Don’t they just look so innocent?! (Don’t be fooled. These are some seriously dirty girls!)

I know the girls stop by occasionally, so please leave comments of your praise and compliments and undying passion for them!

Here is a shot of Rain Degrey from our recent schoolgirl shoot. I know some people (okay, well most people!) think that gym knickers are about as sexy as mullets. However, of course, the people who are turned on by gym knickers think they are hot as hell!

Mr. Defeu being one of those people turned on by those scratchy nylon “granny panties.” When we first got together, I was deeply dismayed that instead of wanting to explore my thong collection, he wanted me to go take my little racy lacy number off and put these nasty, unflattering things on instead! For a while, he actually used them for discipline/humiliation purposes, making me wear them under outfits I otherwise thought were quite sexy — feeling those gym knickers underneath was really embarrassing, even if no one could see them! (Worst nightmare: my skirt would blow up and every would see my unsexy knickers!)

I eventually got used to them, but it was not until one day when we put Miss Maggie Mayhem into them for a photoshoot that I realized, hey — these look really good on her! Her beautiful round bottom snuggly encased by the strong fabric … and it didn’t hurt that I was getting to give her a spanking at the time!

In retrospect, this is of course how a fetishist is made in the first place. Something happens, at some time (usually in impressionable childhood, but I am still rather impressionable and/or have not grown up!) that combines a glimpse or other impression of something with a good feeling (safety, comfort, arousal, happiness) and something clicks and your sexuality is set for life. So, Mr. Defeu, with my active participation, has managed to corrupt me into a lust for girls in gym knickers — I join the legions of Janus and Blushes readers.

Now, my work-a-day knickers are my lacy thongs (they are actually the most comfortable for me) and the special sexy knicks, for a hot date, are the big, high-waisted, low-cut leg, scratchy regulation underpants — viva gym knickers!

(More images of Rain in blue gym knickers…)

This is the last of the solo portrait posts from the set Mr. Defeu and I shot on Saturday. Today’s gal, up-n-comer (pun intended, obviously) Chloe Camilla.

All the gals took to their uniforms like kinky fishes to fetishy water. It was very satisfying to Mr. Defeu and I to see them “getting” the hotness of the clothes they were putting on. Even the gym knickers, which give most girls a pause, were taken in stride and then shown off in the most perfectly naughty way.

That’s not just because all of these gals are consummate professionals, but because they are all deeply kinky individuals. Working with all of them was a joy, because we could count on the fact that they’d happily try just about anything — and know that if they weren’t comfortable, they’d pipe up, so we could just relax and enjoy the process of having fun with them.

So, to Chloe … she may look a bit like an angel or girl next door … but look closer at that wicked little smile in the first shot….

Note to photographers and spanking content producers: We were very lucky to get a chance to work with this adorable creature, and so far I believe she has only worked with Kink.com, so scoop her up quick, because she’s going to go from being a “new face” to “famous” in no time flat!

She doesn’t have a website yet, but do send her a tweet!

• Chloe Camilla’s Twitter

Amazingly, even more hot uniform action tomorrow…